So Long

So hide away
These whispers getting louder every day
So hide myself from
All these feelings from the heart
All these thoughts of holding on

Lie all the time when
I've felt something never felt

I wish I could
Just run from this place
And I wish I could
Just hide my own embrace

So I just go back
Every single second always getting traced back
All these times when I was feeling always so sick
And this feeling to part with everything I've loved
Just always comes back

So long I've been here
This place where I still feel fear
The fear of letting go of what I should be
And when I've tried to distance
Myself from these whispers
I'm getting pushed right back
Barely on my feet
But I will never let myself give in

So leave me be
But all these dancing lights
Keep falling down surrounding me
Reaching for my hand and guiding me to stand up
Let me be
But trying to push myself through all of the adversities
So I keep looking at the light

So long I've been here
This place where I still feel fear
The fear of letting go of what I should be
And when I've tried to distance
Myself from these whispers
I'm getting pushed right back
Barely on my feet
But I will never let myself give in

So I call upon the ancients
Watch this fear become the past
Leaving everything behind me
And leaving dust in my wake

If you see me please send me a sign!!

And I used to wish for a different flesh
And wings on my back
So I could just leave this darkened place
And this rope around my neck

And I swear I'm never looking back

So long I've been here
This place where I still feel fear
The fear of letting go
The fear of letting go

So long I've been here
This place where I still feel fear
The fear of letting go of what I should be
And when I've tried to distance
Myself from these whispers
I'm getting pushed right back
Barely on my feet
But I will never let myself give in