awake

Am I alone?
It's time to venture
Out into the unknown
I leave behind
A castle, crown, and a throne
Under a veil of darkness
I seized it all for my own
But the light broke in til I could see
When I thought the source would
Always overlook me
I thought I found freedom from only being care free
I opened up the door and I saw what it could be
This is the divine whispering for me go now
The enemy is preying in the shadows so I slow down
I ain't got the time for you devils
Y'all can go drown
Ima loose a life but another will be found
Tell me what it takes
For goodness sakes
Not to be afraid of mistakes
In my fear I would shake
Way to much at stake
Woke up
I'm finally awake
Yeah I'm finally awake
I need vocation
Instead of vacations
It's funny how escape has kept me caged in
All this temptation
Breaks my concentration
When there's so much life outside waiting to be bathed in
I really thought that pleasure was joy
So I went to steal some
An addiction slowly formed
Until it had me feeling numb
I was craving every bit scrap particle and crumb
Yet it never satisfied
Didn't know where it was from
I am shackled to a cycle
Cuffed to my lust
Stuck in a body that is destined to be dust
If escape is temporary
What freedom can I trust?
To let me find joy in a world that will combust
Because when darkness aggregates
I want to be somebody else
My anxiety creeps in and I can't seem to go get help
I'm living with a crude contempt, a loathing that's towards myself
If I can't connect with those I love I leave it on the shelf
You see I'm dodging calls from my own mom
My own friends
Face in palm
To find escape from who I am
I'll close the door
Atomic bomb
Once I'm alone now I am calm
Is there a way to squash this qualm
A book to read
A prayer to say
I'll listen close and sing this Psalm
Psalm 139
Thats the beautiful paradox
The lovely contradiction
If I wanna find joy I gotta go through this affliction
Gotta turn into a prisoner
To break from my addiction
A captive of your love
I can't escape from this decision
My
My
My pride I need to swallow
Choose against my own will to complete what is so hollow
Once I chain myself too you
In freedom I will wallow
Ima go up to that door turn the lock and see what follows
This is what takes
For Christ's sake
Not to be afraid of mistakes
In my fear I would shake
Way to much at stake
Woke up
I'm finally awake
Yeah I'm finally awake
Way to much at stake
Woke up
I'm finally awake
Yeah I'm finally awake
My life I'll forsake
Woke up
I'm finally awake
Imprison us in your love



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