PLASTIC CASTLES

Check, yeah
I remember cig smell stained in the air
Black eye on her face wouldn't tell, I swear
Gun underneath the table while I sit in my chair
I was sitting in the car when the drugs got shared
Seeing new scars on his arms one year
Had his pills thrown up when the ambulance near
The door cut in half when I came back here
Told me "Never again", we embrace with tears
Remember bottles underneath the bed
We weren't even in Junior Year yet
I remember long calls, phone sex
Water in the drain swayed, fade red
They didn't know that side of me yet
Lyrics got deep context
She said she wanted dick, so I think "Say less"
Hours fly by but I take no breath
So I make sure she safe if it means my death
Coke up his nose while we play pretend
Calling up her brother while she puke off my bed
Alcohol a demon to like all of my friends
It was woven in the night, switch the needle and thread
Spent some time trying to numb it
But at the same time I just want to feel something
Past shit got me locked in assumption
Scissor blade in the same hand I was fucking
Lust and pain overlapped, I was running
Knife in the side of my mouth
Punch the side of my head while I drive downtown
Wouldn't take that time so the clock fell down
Didn't comprehend death, so the sound drowned out
Seeing new cuts on her skin, on a leg, on a wrist
Blood on his knuckles, all alone with his fist
Blade over heart but that time didn't hit
Toilet paper to a wound, gave a scar too thick
The stories I'd hear still make me sick
Men are the devil when they think with dick
Hidden their intentions when they pass by quick
Beat his ass wouldn't change all the shit he did
Hands clenched tight so I swallow the pin
Blowing up my chest, flame stay within
How you leave soul for dead like they gone in the wind
Then you move along 'cause you don't give a shit
Evil men walk free
Tainted by pain, revenge by greed
How you be a man when you afraid to be seen
So much smoke with these mirrors that it hard to breathe
Shit, man
Let me take it back real quick
Back to the days feeling modest, it was hot like the tropics
When I was spitting those verses in the closet
Plastic castles had taught had taught me I would always be different
Mom would tell me I was gifted, sitting with me I was sobbing
Couldn't get those thoughts to stop it, always thinking I'm the devil
Yeah, "I'm gonna go to hell", I couldn't drop it
Went from tears to self-punishment
Mental always rummaging
Let 'em walk all over me like I was just some gum or shit
Now I'm walking with a new face
Better keep up, I be talking at a new pace
Making this shit happen, I be grinning with the two fangs
Don't see the bigger picture, better get yourself a new frame
I be that Shadow Boy, Calamity
"GREYISHERE." built this off of daydreams and the fantasies
Could give a single fuck if I'm not fitted to your sanity
'Cause if this what insane is, I be posted with my cavilary
Yo, my bad, my cult be fucking up your pageantry
Manikins among us, man, that shit be fucking sad to see
Hanging with the bats, reading manga in my canopy
Switching up my style, GOLF le Fleur be in my vanity
Cigarette lit, accompany the jazz I'm sampling
Peace within my chaos, I'd be dead without my family
Stoking up this fire with the memories that damaged me
Yeah, DRAGON SCALE TEA is what I'm drinking on, from sand to sea
GREY
Yeah
GREY
IS
HERE