This Feeling (MMH)

See you lookin back yeah
Wanna grab it all and grab it
I like ya synthic body
I got it all don't second guess it
You met your match yeah
Magic in the air just happened
I'm not afraid of the way
This feelings taking over me

It's sad You never know in life
One minute ya up and then ya down
It's like ya mind it can't decide
It's not right
Throw you to the side
It's like you're wasting all my time
Always unintentional
My brain is 3 dimensional
I could tell you how I feel
But if I mention
You'll be disappointed
"It's always in your head just go outside and you'll be better"
But the hurtful comments like that makes me wish I never met her
This isn't bout a person
But a portion of a gender
Scanning through the list shit to hurt and pressing enter
Time to leave the situation situate a new agenda

I'm strong enough to rap about depression never faking cries
Just listen to the lyrics bout the murderer that's taking lives
Are boys are being taken
This ain't taken very serious
They think it's cos we're young
Just bite your tongue when your delirious
Try and understand that males are people we got feelings too
And sometimes we be saying shit that arnt meaning to

See you lookin back yeah
Wanna grab it all and grab it
I like ya synthic body
I got it all don't second guess it
You met your match yeah
Magic in the air just happened
I'm not afraid of the way
This feelings taking over me

I wonder if you see my life through eyes like my perspectives
Can't you see I'm struggling it doesn't take detectives
In fact I resurrected
I feel down to the floor and I got up was not intended
Bet you'd like to see me hang around when I'm suspended
Tie the noose around and cut the sound and I assessed

It doesn't take a lot
Just understand I'm me and I ain't normal like them lot
Maybe it's the fact I care that causing all the brain rot
It's like a horror movie when I'm dealing with the brain fog

I wake up from my sleep
And wish I never saw the light
The only medicine is always working when I write
I don't get what I'm dealing with I can't give no description
Maybe I'm just paranoid of non real conditions

Times you get me angry
But just know Id never hit you
You know Iv got my issues and a lot I won't admit to
I'm tired of the shit I'm still a boy I need hug
I need a helping hand not a sarcastic shrug

I'm crying out for help but no one listens when I talk
I drive around at night because it's safer than a walk
A teenager in Bradford man of course he's gonna struggle
Mood are like crash I feel my body's under rubble

I'm never giving up
Il make a legacy for me
Mental health's a bitch
But she ain't ever gonna leave
I tryina help myself I'm really trying can't you see
But I don't get a say it's always it controlling me

See you lookin back yeah
Wanna grab it all and grab it
I like ya synthic body
I got it all don't second guess it
You met your match yeah
Magic in the air just happened
I'm not afraid of the way
This feelings taking over me