Cocaine

I know, I know I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know I know, I know, I know, I know

Yes I seen it, same four lines I'm reading
Oh I know, I know, I'm bleeding
And every thought keeps fleeting
Still I'm screaming, dreaming
A life that I can't find meaning
I'm on edge, just looking for a reason
Trapped and I can't find freedom, oh I know

Late nights, living all on my own
Living in black and white till I think of a new song
Think of a new rhyme, line, a new tone
Think what I might find when trapped in my lone
Some people find that in a club or party
I hate to sound whack or snobby, but that ain't my type of hobby
I'm more the type of homebody who sticks to cables and audio
Really I'm happy lonely, I hope a label will sign me though

Happiness in these lines, thinking all of the time
What else am I gon' rhyme, what else am I gon' find
How else I'm 'posed to grind, when trapped inside my mind
Still looking for a sign, this drug keep me alive

I'm up survivin', I hope a line'll come find me
I'm starving, searching for molly
Like music hungry Somalis, like taking another hit
As I'm sitting my ass beside me
Like feeling nothing equivalent, something that's out of body

It's truly another hit when I pick up the pen and spit
Like a needle up to my wrist or a pill in esophagus
Get a thrill like a bad bitch put her number asking to hit man
I hope she suck on my - or she let me look at her
I'm at the party, they asking me for the molly
I pull out my pen and paper, I tell them that's all I got
See I never meant to get sloppy or lie bout drugs I'm popping
I guess that I'm out of stories
Man really I got a problem

I can't stop capping, I'm addicted to them lines
Cocaine in my system and it's every single rhyme
Satisfaction, I'm a victim, I might laugh but I need wisdom
I'm a couple decisions away from ending up in prison
You don't know the desperation, you don't know where it might take em
I've been looking for the ending but I'm feeling impatient

Yes I seen it, same four lines I'm reading
Oh I know, I know, I'm bleeding
And every thought keeps fleeting
Still I'm screaming, dreaming
A life that I can't find meaning
I'm on edge, just looking for a reason
Trapped and I can't find freedom, oh I know

I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know

Just so happens that I'm happy all the time
You probably wouldn't get that if you read into my lines
The truth is that I'm writing everything that's in my mind
And just so happens that I'm out of stories to provide

Those the buffers, my shields from inner vision
Protect me, my inhibition will keep me from recognition, I'm
In a position where everybody can listen to all my expositions
And use it as ammunition so

I'd rather keep it a secret, no need to leak it
I'm geeking, no other reason to speak it but I can keep it going
I call myself a musician, assign myself to a mission
So if I got nothing left then I guess that all is told

Or maybe I'll make another song about the cocaine
The bitches and the propane I smoke when I'm up in this club
About by my old ways, the money that I won't gain
Instead of all this corny shit I'm writing up awake at four

Yes I seen it, same four lines I'm reading
Oh I know, I know, I'm bleeding
And every thought keeps fleeting
Still I'm screaming, dreaming
A life that I can't find meaning
I'm on edge, just looking for a reason
Trapped and I can't find freedom, oh I know

Oh I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know