I Just Like to Watch

I want to know who I'm looking at
I want to know who I'm talking to
I used to want to feel like I was necessary
Now I only want to be used

I want to know what I'm running from
When it's a dead end I'm running to
I used to want to be what you want from me
Now I only want to consume

Fake pills, cheap highs
They didn't kill me the first time
Blocked all my sight
They only brought me ali-

I want to let it take me over
When there's nowhere else to hide
I used to want to feel
Like it was destiny
Now I want to burn it alive

So I want to fake it til it's over
But I want to feel like it's true
I used to want to look good for you
Now I only want to consume

Fake pills, cheap highs
They didn't kill me the first time
Blocked all my sight
They only brought me alive

'Til even through the high
I think I know what you did
And I think I know what you'll do

I'll feed it too much
Whet your appetite
You'll open wide
A matricide to swallow me up
I'll vow my love without condition
'Til complicit
Told to thank God that I get what I want

I'll give you too much
Never satisfied
You'll open wide
Won't hesitate to swallow me up
And if I'm silent, I'm complicit
Bloody handed, like I did it
'Til I choose to decide

That I think I know what you did
It makes me sick
And I'm gonna tell

'Cause I think I know what you did
And I will make sure you're next