Darkness

I've just woken up
No I've not slept enough
I wanna stand up and I'm trying my best but I cannot get up
I'm feeling so weak
What day is today of this week
Am I drowning in my own bed, I think I have problems to breathe
My room is messed up
It's like I'm being devoured
How am I supposed to clean up the room if I can't even take a shower
Where is my power
This darkness makes me cower
I wish I could say that I care
But I don't since I'm trapped in this tower
What is happening
This is not me
Slowly but surely I'm losing myself but I just cannot flee
What was it like to have goals in this life that I want to achieve
I'm trying to recall but then there's something inside me
That comes and overpowers me
Thoughts in my brain, keep me awake adrenalin
They are after me, they haunt me, I swear they are killin me
I can hear them, I fear them, but nobodys feeling me
Losing body mind and soul, this must be a killin spree
The thoughts drive me insane, I wanna escape but how
In a cage with no borders I wanna break out
Is there something that I can even do now
There's no windows no doors no lights
There is no way out

I have this darkness in my head
I'm trying to find a way out of my bed
Thoughts and feelings that just seem to spread
I don't see a way out, I guess I'll stay
I have this darkness in my mind
The one that keeps me up every single night
I have tried but stopped looking for a light
I think I lost my sight in this darkness inside

I know people that care, they are trying to reach out
I'm not answering the phone, I couldn't speak now
They try to motivate me
How can they dare
How can they think they can help when me myself and I don't even care
They just wouldn't listen, and now I feel like a vicitm
If I was dead tomorrow would that make a difference
I don't think so, it doesn't feel that way
My life seems pointless and I'm stuck with those feelings everyday
Don't try tell me it's gonna be fine
Shut the fuck up I don't need your pity
Don't try to make me move, I'm sorry my bed needs me
I'm staying here, no I can't move
You have no idea how I feel
If you think this is something that i chose
Its darkness that harvests my soul with sharpness until im heartless
Regardless they think it's harmless, like something I could harness
I'm a target, feeling bombarded by marksmen
Socially i'm starving, departed in this dark stain
But nobody understands
They try to make me move but I have no power over my head

I have this darkness in my head
I'm trying to find a way out of my bed
Thoughts and feelings that just seem to spread
I don't see a way out, I guess I'll stay
I have this darkness in my mind
The one that keeps me up every single night
I have tried but stopped looking for a light
I think I lost my sight in this darkness inside

There is no way out
I rather go to sleep now



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