how to cry

hit my jaw with an uppercut
or make me dice an onion
but i will keep my eyes dried up
so we can last 'til august

ooo
but my silence knows no end
ooo
again and again

i hold it in
and take a deep breath
and scream into a pillow
while you call your mom
and tell her i'm a stone wall
tell her i'm lying to you
like i always do
cause i never say what's on my mind
but i swear i always try
i just never learned
never learned
never learned
how to cry

hmm
hmm
ooo

cut my lip with an iron fist
but i won't move a muscle
i won't show the lumps in my throat
even as we crumble

ooo
and i'm driving drunk again
ooo
cry for help with my silence

i hold it in
and take a deep breath
and scream into a pillow
while you call your mom
and tell her i'm a stone wall
tell her i'm lying to you
like i always do
cause i never say what's on my mind
but i swear i always try
i just never learned
never learned
never learned
how to cry
i just never learned
never learned
never learned
how to cry

hmm
hmm

look through the window
i watch him as he goes
put up those walls he learned from all her ghosts
but it's never enough
it's never enough
if I open up
will you cut me off?