As if Waltz

To have you and know I'll never see you again
To want you outside of this room
To take you dancing, to take you out
To get married, to make you mine
To see you with regular clothes on
To earn you, to love you
To look at your face and feel no shame
To have no ounce of pity
To know you have no eye on the time
To love you without regret
For an hour, you're everything
But only an hour
To know what you think
To hear your true voice
To hope your heart beats for me
For an hour, you're everything
What a sweet hour

To see you without your makeup on
To see you cry and sleep
To hide in your closet and see you at work
To see if the rest are like me
To stay behind after
And hear all the gossip
To see how the business works
For an hour, I wish for all this
But only an hour
For an hour you're everything
What a sweet hour

To hear you sing in the shower
To take you abroad
To meet your parents, see your home
To show you my family
To take you to see my favourite films
To see what you think of Proust
And to read all of your favourite books
And to watch you fuck other men
To let your breast warm my hands from the cold
And not afterwards have sex
To see you naked and leave you alone
To hear you moan and walk away
To help you in any way I can
To give you whatever you need
To put you through school
To get you a job
To bribe professors and police
For an hour, I know I'll do all this
But only an hour

To kiss you while fully clothed
To go sledging in the snow
And to pretend I met you anywhere but here
To wish I met you anywhere but here
To tell my mum I love you
To tell the world I need you
To never tell your secret
To never tell your secret
To pretend I've more to say to you than, "How much?"
To pretend we've more to do together than fuck
To be with you for more than an hour
To be with you for more than an hour

To act as if I'm any different than the rest
Pick me; I'm different than all the rest
To act as if you care
To act as if!