Fog Winter Balsam Jade

I will not despair this time of year
When all the lights are shining
And the bells are ringing high and clear
Oh you can't say I'm not trying

And I go out in the afternoon
And I'm burying a secret
That grew inside me like a moon
Til I could no longer keep it

You might say something's missing
You were mist in morning light
How could I have missed this?
I want you by my side

And nobody made me promises
No one offered me protection
And still I thought in my green heart
That I could be the exception

You might say something's missing
You were mist in morning light
How could I have missed this?
I want you by my side
Watching the sun set at 4pm
Holding the shape of another hand
You might say something's missing

So I put my hands into the earth
And I thank you. You were my first
You made me a mother
You made me a mother

And now every July will never feel the same
And cutting an apple
And hearing your name
Or watching the heron take flight in the rain
And fog or winter or balsam or jade
Fog. Winter. Balsam. Jade