Like January

January was my worst month
I spent all my time in bed thinking
If you were gone meant that was all my fault
You would give to another girl what I deserve

My mind was full with all this stuff
With sweet moments we both shared
Maybe hating you was my way out
But honestly I thought that was my loss

And I remember thinking I couldn't stand up
Maybe next month will be okay now it's March

Sometimes it feels like it's January
I got overwhelmed and I feel I can't breath
I start to make comparison with people I don't know
To find the reason why you have to go
'Cause you were the first person I can say that I

I watched all the movies that I got
So that my mind could have been busy with something else
I didn't touch my phone for almost 3 weeks
To bury my hope that you would have still been here

The Truman show went on my TV
I waited for the night so I could hide my feelings
It's crazy that still now I have to fake a smile
My days are heavy and I'm tired of trying

And I remember thinking I couldn't stand up
Maybe one day will be okay now it's March

Sometimes it feels like it's January
I got overwhelmed and I feel I can't breath
I start to make comparison with people I don't know
To find the reason why you have to go

All my steps forward become useless
I have to start again this talking with myself
Another long car ride around the town
So I can find why you have to go
'Cause you were the first person I can say that I

I built a world with no pain, and locked myself in it
I faked it for the show because cameras were on me
Would you ever noticed if I had not told you?
I take a bow, the curtains fall, I swear I gave you all I got

Sometimes it feels like it's January
I got overwhelmed and I feel I can't breath
I start to make comparison with people I don't know
To find the reason why have to go
'Cause you were the first person I can say that I loved