FINDING FAITH

Now I know that doubts aren't real and I wont let them own me
But the shadow's always on the other side of the silver lining
And in order to fully know ourselves
We have to acknowledge the dark and the light
This is that place

I know time is moving hella slow
But the facts are known
So we gotta face it
I know I been tryina keep it light
But that doesn't mean that it's entertaining
Sometimes we just wanna feel the pain of someone else
So we know that we can take it
Or even try change it
Into something even more amazing

I don't wanna pretend anymore
That these dreams will come knocking on the door
I would do anything that it takes
But I'm starting to question my faith

Ive been clear and committed
Faithful to my mission
Anytime a doubt comes up i never listen
Really what more could you ask of me
Question god even though its blasphemy
And it goes against nearly everything i stand for
I've seen more signs I'm on the right track
Than i could ask for
Maybe its all still according to the plan
I don't understand
Think i could be reaching more hearts
But I'm in a frozen land
Hidden in the dark
With my open hands
Did i miss the mark

But i keep my nose to the grindstone
Cuz without this music in my life
I don't know how i would find home
And i try to find the silver lining
Even when I got my eyes closed
And i know if i keep digging deep
One day im gone strike gold
Or drive myself psycho

But i just keep counting all my blessings
Grateful for the lessons
Overcome what's keeping me in fear and stress
And face it all head on no running from it
Knowing full well life just gone keep em coming
And im getting better at adapting to it
Open as a vessel change gone happen through it
Its the push and pull that keeps the tides change
As the seasons shift new life brings
Opportunity
And this internal battle shit is really nothing new to me
But i transmute it all beautifully

I don't even pretend anymore
That these dreams aren't already at the door
Cuz i'll do anything that it takes
And im learning not to question my faith

Finally i see the higher vision
Shoulda took a breath when i felt like slipping
All the pieces come together perfectly
As i align inside it occurs to me
Its pretty comical when i think about it
I bet god is having such a laugh about it
Taught my ass a lesson not to get to stressing
Just keep counting all my blessings and i'll find direction