I Am The Problem

I got so much anger and
I don't know what to do with it
Cutie like Topanga and
I know he wants to ruin it
Shit-eating grin yeah
He knows that I'm full of it
I want him to hurt me
He likes how I'm using him
Self-hate as a form of self-obsession
Self-harm as a form of self-expression
Sex object yes I am a lethal weapon
C'mon baby touch it
But don't you catch a possession
Get me in the foreground that's my foreplay
Want all the attention 'til he's standing in my doorway
I can't keep a lover or a friend or a tour date
Ruin everything I think fucking up is my forte
(Ladies and gentlemen, the one, the only...)

I am the problem
Walk in the room like
I am the problem
What do you call it?
I am the-
Do we have a-
Problem
I am the problem
Walk in the room like
Who's gonna solve it
(Problem)
I am the problem
I am the-
Do we have a-
And I'm tryna get it in control like z
Tryna let it go tryna own up to my needs
But I don't owe none of you bitches
A single fucking thing
So I'm not picking up the phone
Unless it's strangers in my feed
Feed me
It's all so easy
To leave you all behind
Even I don't wanna see me
Bitches can't touch me
Put it on repeat
I am the problem
Read it and weep

Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail!
And I wail on that bitch like
Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail!
And I bury that bitch like
Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail!
And I'm carrying shit like
Nail in the coffin
I do it to 'em like often
Off 'em

Watch out
I'm not properly socialized
Full of microplastics and
Prone to going in overdrive
Toxic in ways that even I
Cannot fully vocalize
Talking shit you better
Come and find me or don't
What do I care
Everyone I love ends up
Starring in my nightmares
Wake myself up screaming
Like I'm stuck up in a highchair
Inner child, little demons
Run free in the timeshare
Rent-free in my mind
I still remember like
I'm right there
Not the details but the feeling
Diagnoses ruining my life
So is this healing
Pull away I leave them all behind
That's how I'm helping
Starving out the mess
That I make of human connection
I'm deflecting
Yes I use self-awareness
As a means of protecting
Myself from the pain of real change
And I'm projecting
My flaws into work
The circle spirals into legend
How do I get out
If what I want is gonna end me

I am the problem
Walk in the room like
I am the problem
What do you call it?
I am the-
Do we have a-
Problem
I am the problem
Walk in the room like
Who's gonna solve it
(Problem)
I am the problem
I am the-
Do we have a-
And I'm tryna get it in control like z
Tryna let it go tryna own up to my needs
But I don't owe none of you bitches
A single fucking thing
So I'm not picking up the phone
Unless it's strangers in my feed
Feed me
It's all so easy
To leave you all behind
Even I don't wanna see me
Bitches can't touch me
Put it on repeat
I am the problem
Read it and weep

Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail!
And I wail on that bitch like
Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail!
And I bury that bitch like
Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail! Wail!
And I'm carrying shit like
Nail in the coffin
I do it to 'em like often
Off 'em

Go head mama won't you shake it
Bring the hoedown to the tabletop
Bring the bacon home
Can you break it down
Four seconds to break
The sound barrier to entry
No one cares and that's your superpower
You've got everything to prove
To no one but yourself
And you've got everywhere to move
You'd better move your mouth
And you've got nothing left to lose
Except all of your doubt
I mean you don't believe in luck
And here you are
Dumbfounded, duck-footed
Dumbstruck, dummy
Shit's so bleak it's actually funny
Reckless, resentful
Still I get this money
I make the way
They say "Yes I'm coming"
I am the roster
What has become of the popstar?
Nasty poser it's my posture
Hand out, it's not an offer