what i wanted

Smile for the world to see
But keep my mouth closed
I'm lying through my teeth
So no one will ever know
Blinding lights reflecting
Off the diamonds 'round my neck
Is it really worth it
If I pose and hold my breath?
Pose and hold my

If I have everything, why don't I feel free?
All these chains aren't all that binds me
(Find your light, center mark, smile, and live)
I see the one that's got me locked in
But I'm looking in the mirror, and it's what I wanted
(This is what I'm supposed to want, right?)
Is this really what I wanted?

A decade spent to get here
Were all those years a waste
If I throw it all away
Close the door, and leave this place?
The countdown clock is running
I lose more of me with every tick
Is it really worth it
If I pose and hold my breath?
Don't wanna hold my

If I have everything, why don't I feel free?
All these chains aren't all that binds me
(Back from break NOW? Copy, running.)
I see the one that's got me locked in
But I'm looking in the mirror, and it's what I wanted
(Is this fucking worth it?)
Is this really what I wanted?

Pose and hold my breath
Pose and hold my breath
Pose and hold my breath
Pose... breath
Don't wanna hold my breath
Don't wanna hold my breath
Don't wanna hold my breath
I'm done holding my breath

I chose myself and now I feel free (yeah)
I broke the chains that used to bind me (used to bind me)
I see that I was never locked in (no no)
Now I'm looking in the mirror and I'm all I wanted
(Pose breath, pose breath, pose breath, pose breath)
All I wanted