Blood in My Veins

Smile on my face
From the pills in veins
They're supposed to help me numb the pain but I still hate myself

So now I wanna call home
But I can't let them know
I'm thinking of taking more than I should

Cause Im screaming from all the silence in my head
Smiling to mask the crying in this living hell

And now I'm scared to cry
Cause my tears they burn inside my eyes
And no they don't wash away
They mix with the blood in my veins
And now Im scared to say that I wasn't born this way
No the blood in my veins
Doesn't feel the same

And I guess I'll never feel the same again

So now I spend my nights
Dancing in the dark
Holding tight to the only part of who I was

But is it better to dance alone
Or to have no one at all
I don't know, I wish I'd know

Cause I hate my face, my body, my laugh, myself
So what's the point of waiting for this story to end

Cause now I'm scared to cry
Cause my tears they burn inside my eyes
And no they don't wash away
They mix with the blood in my veins
And now Im scared to say that I wasn't born this way
No the blood in my veins
Doesn't feel the same

I just wanna be happy again
Like all the memories that I see inside my head
But how do I tell my mom and dad
That I'm so scared of who I am