Summer Breeze

Sometimes I struggle with my mental health
This medication that is meant to help
Has got me feeling numb
I left a note here on the center shelf
Just so you know there wasn't nothing else
I think you could've done

If I'm not happy who could make me be
Yeah
I've always loved you, but I hated me
Yeah
Everything I'm talking A to Z
Yeah
I know in the dark you'll find your way to me
I'll be waiting patiently

I wish that I could tell you
Why I feel the way I do
You showed me the rainbow
And yet all I saw was blue
Been like this forever
Aint like none of this is new
I even try pray
But don't know who I'm praying to

And I know it sounds crazy
Yeah
Don't think my soul's worth saving
Yeah
Think of all the air I'm wasting
Yeah
I'm getting sick and tired of waiting
Yeah

So, I'm just
Tryna keep it cool
I'm blowing with the Summer Breeze
Getting tired of this town
I wonder if I'll ever leave
I'm bout to buy a private jet
And fly across the seven seas
Tryna fight the demons
That reside inside of me but
Luckily, I haven't died yet
You don't wanna hear it
Know it's kinda hard to digest
I'll be here in spirit
When the beating stops in my chest
Waiting for the day
I know it's coming
Fuck, I digress

Don't say I don't warn you
Of the storm that was approaching
Just tryna catch a wave
Before I'm swallowed by the ocean
Tryna reach the shore
But every stroke has got me choking
And don't nobody care
I swear I wish that I was joking

But you won't see my cry
I'm laying out beneath the sky
Pondering my purpose
Hoping heaven knows the reason why
That deep inside's a raging storm
And even when the rain is gone
I'm feeling like I don't belong
It's ground control to Major Tom

And I know it sounds crazy
Yeah
Don't think my soul's worth saving
Yeah
Think of all the air I'm wasting
Yeah
I'm getting sick and tired of waiting

Just because you see the smile on my face
You'll never know what's on my mind
Almost too hard for me to take
These thoughts are racing all the time
It's like the lights are on, but no one's home
I hear you knocking at the door
But I won't let you in, cus if I did
I'd still feel alone

I'm sorry that I'm like this
Just stuck here in the dark without a light switch
I hope you know it's killing me to write this
Please remember every breath priceless

So, I'm just
Tryna keep it cool
I'm blowing with the Summer Breeze
Getting tired of this town
I wonder if I'll ever leave
I'm bout to buy a private jet
And fly across the seven seas
Tryna fight the demons
That reside inside of me but
Luckily, I haven't died yet
You don't wanna hear it
Know it's kinda hard to digest
I'll be here in spirit
When the beating stops in my chest
Waiting for the day
I know it's coming
Fuck, I digress