How I Feel

Yeah
Ke denka ka life lately
Along with the problems I'm dealing with
There's internal pain that I'm hiding
Evil and demons I'm fighting
I got situations with girls that I don't trust net kaba kgalla
Kenale di insecurities and tswanti ke deal-e le tsona
But how do I deal with all of this?
Stressing and overthinking
I'm drowning in my sorrows
Titanic, I'm sinking
I don't wanna get out of the water
I just wanna go missing
For a day, or a month, or a year
And see who the fake one's
Who the real one's
Kebo'mang bang'batlang ko fatsi?

Ba'baratang hak'sa phandi
Le'bang toetsang, just because ke phila ka moya o'fatsi
Le'ba act-ang basang'rati mara they bump my shit ko kasi
Bari wadutla haosa tlale, and mmele utlala ka madi
I'm inhaling for the pain
If you asking why I inhale
Sometimes I get thoughts of cutting my veins, with a blade
Don't ask me why, akere they say "boys don't cry
FYI if you wanna describe
I'm not a new wave I'm a new tide
I take time to make a decision
Coz I'm always undecided
In that moment, I'm tryna figure out where my minds at
I get hypnotized, and it takes me time to get my mind back
Time is ticking
And I know I'm never getting that time back

I do shit that I don't wanna do and encourage the opposite
I'm a hypocrite
I'm dealing with hatred-envy and I don't even wanna get rid of it
Coz it pushes me, to do a thousand reps like a militant
I got a tunnel vision I don't look to the rear
I'm focused and I'm vigilant
La ekasi akuna skathi sok'jika
Bazok'bloza fuck backstabbing
There's fake niggas and fake bitches
That are disguised in acting
I encountered a couple of leeches
Only when I started rapping
I know I'll come across more, that will offer me cash injections

What leads to crime and theft?
Situations of being broke
There ain't no valid jobs that are left
And you can't blame the path you chose
As I'm manifesting this dream I promise myself
I won't sell my soul
There ain't no car, no house, and no money
That's worth my soul