CHOSEN ONE

I'm the only rapper that live in their truth
Ain't nobody living in their truth

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I looked mama in the eyes and told her I'm the chosen one
She looked down then looked at me and said I know son
With a deep sigh and a heavy heart I walked away
I put my heart into these pages
To stop my mind from racing
When it becomes too much
I could never do too much
Matter of fact if you ask me I haven't done enough
How's it possible to push yourself this hard and barely feel
Like you've moved a nudge
Love is all I ever had wish I didn't show so much
But it's who I am cuz I ain't never had nobody there
To go and pick me up
Mama would have done it but that woman's already done enough
So I always hid my pain, so much pain momma's seen enough
I'm just tryna be the man that should have picked me up from school
No I don't feel lost
I'm just feeling real confused
Because I'm doing everything they tell me I should do
How I'm feeling so on track but feeling like I haven't started
How I'm feeling so at home but all I want is to depart it
How I'm feeling like I'm wanting every woman that
Smiles like she knows me
But I'm feeling like I wish I had that single one and only
All these empty conversations are the worst when you feel lonely
Feel I finally know the that man I am but darkness is inside me
Wonder why when I look to my right ain't nobody beside me
If I was such a good man then tell me why'd they leave
I'm weak when I'm in love
It hits like ecstasy
But I couldn't even build the world I wanted
For the woman of my dreams
Got my momma worrying bout these bills
That woman's still not free oh
I'm a winner and a loser at the same time
Living out my dreams but I'm still failing at my timeline
I'm so jaded I'm so phased I cannot tell what's a red flag
Cuz we all got red flags
I'm having trouble with these warning signs
All I ever wanted was some peace of mind
I don't care about the money and the sex
They're addicting but alone they leave me empty nothing left
I just need a bit of peace and a little bit of love
A lot of loyalty
Always putting that above
Cuz that's how I'mma start this shit
With the same ones imma end it with
I could never switch up never switch from the beginning
Look up at the pyramids the greatest feat we've witnessed
Keep the same foundation you just build upon your prism
This is me up at the bottom
Member me at all my heights
Take me off the pedestal and pay no mind to flashing lights
I'm just as broken as the rest
Maybe hopeful and naive
Every night I manifest all my dreams before I sleep
I guess that makes me different
I guess that makes me different different
That I'm thuggin through the pain instead of reaching for escape
Cuz I plan my day by day instead of wasting them away
Because I value my tomorrow so I pay the price today
Because I keep my circles tighter than the noose around my neck yeah
The one from all the pressure when I tell them I'm up next yeah
Cuz of either ego or self respect
Careful who I give my body to
I could never have a woman yelling "Look I ruined you"
If I ever said I love you then know I still do
Lately I been walking round and acting like I'm bulletproof
But no I ain't go lie my heart is shattered from these soul ties
If the love was ever real
Then I believe it never dies
Why is it we're hung up on the ones that traumatized us
We don't mourn the good ones
That walk this earth until they're dead and gone
But the ones who did us dirty are the ones who get our songs
Just know that my heart has done forgiven
Anyone that did me wrong
I done let go of my pain and grudges once you've heard this song
To the woman that destroyed me, I'm still praying for your family
To the girl who just left me, thank you, you helped me see
That I can lose it all, it won't stop me I won't miss a beat
To the girl who can't let go of me
I think it's time to part our ways
I think that destiny is trying to tell us we should turn the page
To the girl who was more loyal than loyalty
I'm sorry that I didn't notice when we were in our teens
But I'd leave again if I had to cuz it isn't me
I am not the one for you although I love you dearly
You deserve different man I hope you hear me clearly
To my father I don't blame you for the time you've lost
You were a younger man than me that must have been a lot
Wish that you were shown that's it's okay to not be okay
You don't have to fake the strong man act everyday
I know that you're lost and you life is almost over
But I'm sorry ain't nothing more that I can to do give you closure
To my brother, I'm your brother
I'm am not competition
Life is way too short to have this family in division
I looked mama in the eyes and told her I'm the chosen one
She looked down then looked at me and said I know son
With a deep sigh and heavy heart I walked away
I walked away
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