Was Before

I was the center of attention
I had the crowd going wild for a while
And I kept revving the fucking engine
But then the lights went down
and the music cut out
Now I'm fiending for more when I can't hit record
As the shows are all empty the crowd got too bored
Of the same fucking feeling it keeps on repeating
I drown in the music just to fucking delete it

And like you're just fucking up everything all the time
As bad as you possibly could be
But listen to other people and not just think that
You're the right one

I can't keep holding on to the one I was before
Cause I'm fucking dying here
Just trying to stop the war
But it's in my head
It's all in my head

And you're not like I thought you'd be
No you're not like I thought you'd be

They say you'll never be alone
when you're put on the throne
There's too many problems
and I'm always on my phone
I feed into reactions
I want it I'm a have it

I gave it my whole life
for people to be attracted
And now I'm rolling in
all the lies I told you
Still holding on
to the one I was
I keep folding in
under all this pressure
I'll settle for now
until I lose my temper

So I'm sorry if I let you down
I know I never come around
I've been trying to make you proud
But how?

I can't keep holding on to the one I was before
Cause I'm fucking dying here
just trying to stop the war
But it's in my head
It's all in my head

It's in my head
It's in my head
It's all in my head