Jealous (Of My Friends)

I used to be happy, I used to be fine
I used to say good things come in time
I used to be patient, I used to have fun
Before I started to compare myself to everyone

I used to be calm, I used to have grace
Now a mild panic has taken its place
What if I am never as good as you?
What has my whole life amounted to?

Every time I think I'm better
I open up my phone and I remember

I'm jealous of my friends and they're jealous of me
They say the grass is always greener but I don't look good in green
I'm the worst, they should throw me in jail
It's nice to see them win but I'd rather see them fail

I'm jealous of my friends and they're jealous of me
When one of them is happy, I take it personally
So what? So does everyone else
I'm not a bad friend that's what I keep telling myself

I used to be hopeful, I used to dream
Now I can't help feeling like a washed up has been
There was a time I had faith in myself
Before I tried to measure up to everybody else

I swear I'm happy for you, I can swallow my pride
I know what they say about a rising tide
So why do I take it as a personal attack?
It's like you take a step forward and I take two back

So every time I think I'm better
I open up my phone and I remember

I'm jealous of my friends and they're jealous of me
They say the grass is always greener but I don't look good in green
I'm the worst, they should throw me in jail
It's nice to see them win but I'd rather see them fail

I'm jealous of my friends and they're jealous of me
When one of them is happy, I take it personally
So what? So does everyone else
I'm not a bad friend that's what I keep telling myself
That's what I keep telling myself
There's nothing to defend
I'm not a bad friend
That's what I keep telling
That's what I keep telling
That's what I keep telling myself

I'm jealous of my friends and they're jealous of me
They say the grass is always greener but I don't look good in green
I'm the worst, they should throw me in jail
It's nice to see them win but I'd rather see them fail

I'm jealous of my friends and they're jealous of me
When one of them is happy, I take it personally
So what? So does everyone else
I'm not a bad friend that's what I keep telling myself



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