... Oh No

Seems like yesterday
They told me you were gone
I could barely write a song
The artist in me was done

Now I've got five new friends
More like five stages
Denial is crawling in my bones
This one is about that one

Saturday morning, don't need help
I'm running errands by myself
Then the strangest quick phone call
Her voice was shaking after all

I made her promise she would tell
Even if they were going through hell
But hell ain't closer to the truth
The pain is all we have left of you

... Oh no, oh no
I see the pieces of my heart
On the floor, all alone
I don't have the strength to go on

And I won't accept it's true
It makes no sense, I still need you
... Oh no, oh no
It's the truest lie that I've been told

At the movie set that day
My first time ever in LA
The movies we'd watch Saturday
I thought of you and asked if you're okay

I wanted to show you that car
The one they used in Jurassic Park
You loved that, and the pictures of the shark
So much of you in all there are

... Oh no, oh no
I see the pieces of my heart
On the floor, all alone
I don't have the strength to go on

And I won't accept it's true
It makes no sense, I still need you
... Oh no, oh no
It's the truest lie that I've been told

I can't believe I'm choking
Over the words not spoken
How could they take away from me your last goodbye?
What am I now but broken?
Weeping with arms wide open
Lying awake with my veins claiming for the knife
Gotta get up, start moving
I've got a shift at 2 and
Nobody's world stops spinning 'cause someone died
But how can this be it?
No last hug, just reeling
They said "no open casket tonight"
I wish it was me instead
You're better than I'll ever be
So I'll pretend and I'll continue to deny

... Oh no, oh no
It's the truest lie that I've been told