Closure, Pt. 3

Oh, it's all nothing Always say it's nothing
Keep on holding something Make it so damn hard to
Look in your eyes See the pain that's inside them
Oh, boy, fifty

Look, I'd be lying if I said that I'm okay Regrets about the past and I'm stressed about today
Cause I know that I'm broken I'm just trying to find a way
Even though I'm holding on I've been questioning my strength
Look, I know I'm different I just wanna feel accepted

I do it to myself My mental health has been neglected
I'm careless with my love Even though I should protect it
I've been lying about my problems When I know I should address it
I keep it to myself Cause I'm afraid of being judged

I was drinking for the pain But now I do it just because
I tell them it's depression But it's all of the above
We convince ourselves it's real When we know it isn't love
I know it's hard to swallow But we gotta face the truth

I drank away the pain Cause I was trying to make it through
I've been dealing with my demons I've been trying to play it cool
I've been suffering inside When they think I'm making moves
How the fuck they did me wrong But I'm the one that takes the blame

They gon' put it all on you When it takes two to play the game
See, I thought that I recovered But I know I ain't the same
God done told me to forgive you And that's why I hated praying
But I'm, I'm on my knees And I've been begging him to heal me

I'm covered in my sins My heart and soul is getting filthy
The bottle made me numb To all the pain that I was feeling
They just know me for my flaws It's only God that knows the real me
They assassinate me They try to say that I'm a monster

I was poisoned by her love So I went sober when I lost her
Her love was like the ocean Made me drown inside the water
Til this day I still want closure Even though I shouldn't bother
You lying to yourself I know you tell them I was wrong

You can paint the perfect picture Till they see how it was drawn
You can put the blame on me But it was you that broke the bond
You the one that fucked it up You know the reason why I'm gone
I'll let you tell it though I hope it gives you peace of mind

Tell them I was toxic Narcissistic with an evil side
Make me out to be the villain If that helps you sleep at night
You thought the grass was greener And I'm glad you finally see it's dry
Like all them tears that I was shedding On my pillowcase

You heartless piece of shit Yeah, I hope that makes you feel the way
You never gave a fuck But I just hope you know I'm still okay
It's sad to say you can't admit I loved you in the realest way
Let's make a toast to it for what it's worth Like a rose on fire

There's still beauty in it when it burns You said I did you wrong
Til this day you know you did me worse Your love was like a gift
But deep inside there was a hidden curse The love is gone but all the memories won't
Disappear Sometimes you just gotta let them go

And you can't interfere Interfere with all the things that they
Decide to do Cause what's the point of making promises
If they gon' lie to you I'll let you tell the lies
But I'ma be the one that tells the truth You said your love was real

But you ain't feel the way I feel for you I saw you as an angel
But you made me go through hell for you I gave you everything
I did the shit that no one else would do No matter where you look
You'll never find a better me I wish that I could tell you to your face

But I'll just let it be It hurts to let you go
But I'll just numb it with this Hennessy I guess that they were right
It's only real if you can set it free