Cursed Seed

A cursed seed was once innocent with a plan to do big things
Throughout this lifetime with accomplishment of hopes and dreams
And live happily ever after and all the above
And have a family that showed love and never kept a grudge
What a fantasy to picture, as the seed grew bigger
That fantasy became a nightmare that pulled the trigger
On every single opportunity that was considered
The brain would take the bullet from the curse to be a quitter
His body was a wreck on the side of maturity
His health and self respect would pull away from priority
The authority was satan, full in charge with his misery
So instead of having fun, he had to fight his disability
He's been through so much shit but he never could predict
That life would make him change to an angry lunatic
Because of his illness, he had no strength to succeed
He was hurt since birth, as a cursed seed

This world's a stranger
I can't trust it by my side
My life could be in danger

All this pain and anger
Is what's been holding me back
I fight but fall on my back
Oh, I'm a cursed seed

From mistake to mistake, it would seem like no escape
Constantly fighting demons inside him built up so much rage
Causing anxiety to set and blow up in his face
Pausing all the words he wanted to expose on the pages
He hated every single stare from the public
Cause it would force him to become an ignorant, evil buzzard
He wouldn't try to meet people cause there was no one he could trust
And the chemistry wouldn't match to what he wanted to discuss
He felt the most hated than anyone that was breathing
Cause who he ran into would diss him for no apparent reason
He would ask himself daily is it worth to keep living
If he continues to suffer with no one that's willing to fix him?
Scraping money from his budget to put food up on his plate
He hated living poor but that was what he had to face
And because of his illness, he had no strength to succeed
He was hurt since birth, as a cursed seed

This world's a stranger
I can't trust it by my side
My life could be in danger

All this pain and anger
Is what's been holding me back
I fight but fall on my back
Oh, I'm a cursed seed

I'm a cursed seed, oh

Mmm, suicide was on it's way to kill his body for good
No one around him seemed to care about the pain he withstood
It's all good cause nobody loves the outcast right?
But be quick to show fake love when that outcast dies
This world is like a stop sign but it can't stop the lies
It only wants to stop respect when it crosses the line to save the planet
That was what he tried to do on his subjects
But his heart was scared to tell him that his brain was a target
He couldn't take no more depression or the pressure building up
His music even told him that he wasn't good enough
So the only thing he thought about was aiming the G
Against his temple and squeeze, so he could kill the cursed seed that was him

This world's a stranger
I can't trust it by my side
My life could be in danger

All this pain and anger
Is what's been holding me back
I fight but fall on my back
Oh, I'm a cursed seed