I Don't Feel Alive

And there are times I don't feel alive
In zombie mode but I'm still gon slide
Gon put my life on the line
Before I ever watch my n---a die
Face to face
Can't you tell that I got empty eyes
I find the chance to kill the one that killed my dog
It might make me cry
And that's the truth
I hope you happy bout this pain I'm rappin bout
That's all you
Learn myself
Ain't no man out here showin me how to move
Keep my distance
Used to look up to that n---a as a youth
Open wounds only prove we're the struggle that we came from
I got my lil change up
It's probably only right I change up
Cause lately you've been acting strange blood
Never thought I could obtain love
But the way that she been acting got me thinking I could feel
Them death threats aint respected to you show me that it's real
Strap my cleats throw a back plate on my glock
It get lonely in the field
Nobody trustworthy
Can't even take the homies on a drill
He been around me for some years but I don't know him
Thought you was my homie you showed your true intentions
You really phony
Switch clothes as I'm watching n---as closely
Pops said he got me I'm holdin onto what he told me
Cause that's the only thing that keep me strong
Family fake every week I change the number to my phone
Can't tell you what's goin on
I'm present but I'm really never home
These voices been distracting me from my goals
And every time I slide I told my brother that this the last time
And then I go dribble a lil more
Inside my chest there's a hole
Where my heart supposed to be
Wishin my pops would wake up so it be hard for me to sleep
Walk in the yeah I know the drill I'm from the streets
Read me my rights cause y'all ain't getting shit from me
G'z
Aye
Before I turn myself in, I would be wrong if I ain't popped none
How you gon care about your life when you ain't got none
Lil bro ain't got no type of motion
He just opp huntin
Fuckin with n---as that's tryna kill me
Gaels we not brothers
Speak on my name cause I ain't put you on that's not a hundred
Rari world
I'm satisfied with life I know what I did
Box locked inside my head with murder scenes that I'm fine with
Walk a n---a down with fully switch you gotta try this
Has something happened in your life that made your mind switch
Cause when I came out the womb I wasn't like this
And there are times I don't feel alive
In zombie mode but I'm still gon slide
Gon put my life on the line
Before I ever watch my n---a die
Face to face
Can't you tell that I got empty eyes
I find the chance to kill the one that killed my dog
It might make me cry
And that's the truth
I hope you happy bout this pain I'm rappin bout
That's all you
Learn myself
Ain't no man out here showin me how to move
Keep my distance
Used to look up to that n---a as a youth