My Crazy Head

Scared to admit that I wasted so much time
Don't know if I'll ever feel the hot summer shine
Been stuck in bed all day, with dark close blinds
Someday I can wake up, make the day all mine
Hopefully one day I can get out of bed
And i can go back to singing on what needs to be said
Got a lot of crazy thoughts going on in my head
Wish my thoughts would go back to being quiet instead
Surrounded by everyone, yet I feel so alone
Kinda feels like my soul has been sold
Feels like the devil has been taking control
Cause honestly, nothing been feeling the same no more
Wonder if it's just because I'm growing
Just wanna go back to being happy and glowing
Every day I feel like times moving real slowly
At this rate I might end up doing something really unholy
But I don't wanna take my own life
I still have so much to write
I still got unrested nights
I'm still going to fight
Not taking the easy way out
Cause my future still bright
Still got some new heights
That I haven't explored
Look to see if anyone cared
Asked how I was, but I still felt ignored
Felt like I made them all bored
Man I can't afford
To loose all my close friends
They the reason my faith been restored
Hope one day I can give an award
For all the people still fighting the war
The war all in they're minds
Unfazed by the lies
Already cried out my eyes
Because I've heard from the wise
Scared to admit that I wasted so much time
Don't know if I'll ever feel the hot summer shine
Been stuck in bed all day, with dark close blinds
Someday I can wake up, make the day all mine
Hopefully one day I can get out of bed
And i can go back to singing on what needs to be said
Got a lot of crazy thoughts going on in my head
Wish my thoughts would go back to being quiet instead
Surrounded by everyone, yet I feel so alone
Kinda feels like my soul has been sold
Feels like the devil has been taking control
Cause honestly, nothing been feeling the same no more