it's not enough.

I can't find my way to this promised land
Where fears and hopelessness are banned
Ideas of what my life would be
Began crumbling at 23

Internal deadlines on the clock
As birthday candles light me up
To mark another season gone
Disappointments going strong

Toking on my favorite greens
To get me down to cruising speed
Stormy waves to tranquil seas
I call it my therapy

Ooooooh

I've had this ringing in my ears for years
Drown all my desires in fear spirals
Convince me to give it up
That it's not enough
Enough

Years pass but nothing changes
Got my mind set on escaping
To pretenses in my dreams
While my own future's looking bleak

I'll grind all day and sing through rage
To clear up my mental space
But even in these quiet times
Only clutter fills my mind

Information overloading
To distract from what ain't working
While the fears I haven't shed
Are what makes up my bed

Ooooooh

I've had this ringing in my ears for years
Drowns all my desires in fear spirals
Convince me to give it up
That it's not enough
Enough

Enough

Day after day after day
And my nights are running away
I'm always just a little too late
I listen to hearsay
Activities on replay
Feels like I'm my own disgrace
An imposter and a fake
With shiny nails on display
I can't run away from these traits
But I don't know if I believe in fate
When I say
I'll be what I always hated
Self concept is fading to traces of a thousand faces
They morphe into shapelessness
Selfishness

I've had this ringing in my ears for years
Drowns all my desires in fear spirals
Convince me to give it up
Cuz it's not enough

I've had this ringing in my ears for years
Drowns all my desires in fear spirals
Convince me to give it up
That it's not enough
Enough