Internal Dialogue

It must have been hard
Staying in line
Knowing your influences
Did it all the time
It must have been strange
Living in blue
And see me shut down
As though It ewas an easy thing to do
But you could tell where I had been
By the way I held my gun
Trying to write anything
While being mocked by an off beat drum

But I was not honest
I was not healthy
Yeah, I was not honest
Honest

You did the right thing
Covered your scars
Challenged your faith
And closed your eyes driving cars
For all that they knew
You were safe home
But you went through hell whenever you were left alone
And you could see where I had been
From the pictures that they took
I tried to look positive at things
Faced myself but didn't look

That was not honest
I was not healthy
I am not honest
Honest

I wish you could see
Yourself through my eyes
There's no need to cling to unnecessary lies
The voice in your head
Whose spirit you stole
Left you for dead but you dug the hole
And I could tell where you had been
From the marks around your wrists
The red water washed away your sins
But are you as pure as this?

No you are not honest
You are not healthy
You are not honest
Honest
No you are not honest
You are not healthy
You are not honest
Honest