Oceans (A Conversation With God)

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Saviour

How come that you never listen?
I'm on my own and I'm wishing
I could have someone to hold
But Lord I'm alone
I'm stuck in a prison

All that I've known is a lie
Built upon sand I'm sinking inside
No other way out, I'll say my goodbyes
Can no longer try, alone I will die

People they cheat me
Always defeat me
The life that I'm building could never complete me
Said you were there, can you see me?
Where are you Lord when everyone leaves me?

You never loved me it's evident
I'm crying more than I ever did
I'm drinking again
Like It never ends
I'll keep on forgetting everything

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Saviour

My son all this time I was with you
I love you of course I forgive you
Can't see the hand that uplifts you
Ignore all the lies the enemy gives you

The times that you couldn't see through
That was his voice, don't let him decieve you
I'm always here to lead you
I promise you I'll never leave you

My child I know youre hurting
I suffered to take the weight of your burden
Now you can be certain
My love is determined
Carried your cross, my love will surround you
I'll calm the waves around you
You could never outrun me
You're my lost sheep and I found you

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Saviour

God it's been 3 months since I gave my life and still I'm slipping back
I'm destroying the mind you gave me
Drink until it fades to black
I don't feel my life has changed
It't always pain and panic attacks
Why am I still here like square one?
Hungover, again I relapse

Where is the rest?
I'm feeling depressed
Dealing with trauma I never addressed
I'm still a mess
Am I possessed?
Can you just tell me if this is a test?
Lift up my hands, I feel so alone
Thought you were here why haven't I grown?
Battling demons, it's out of control
I know I'm saved but where did you go?

I feel like everyday is the same
I jump on a train
I'm running away
All of my problems with haunt me again
And still it remains
Like blood in my veins
And battling satan, I spit in his face
As parasites eating away at my brain
The colour is drained like it's turning grey
Jesus Christ I'm calling Your Name

And I will call upon Your Name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine, oh

My peace I'm leaving with you
No one can ever take it away
I'm always here with you
I'm listening everytime you pray
And I'll remain consistent
My love will stay persistent
I have a plan for you
And a reason you existed

I'm everything youll ever need
I'm fixing your heart when it bleeds
I'm breaking the chains, you're free
Whenever you call upon me
My thoughts of you like countless grains of sand across the coast
Whenever you feel like I'm not there, through sheer faith it matters most
And I'll sustain you from above, the Father Son and Holy Ghost
And every time you run with open arms, I'll say welcome home