CUT MY LOSSES///////RUMINATING

I got a lot of pain, I still need to get healed through
I know I said I healed, man, I really thought I did too (I did too)
So call me a fake, call me a snake, say that you hate
So I can break and lose what's at stake

'Cause I can't even trust the process, I feel I'm a piece of garbage
I just had to cut my losses, I don't ever wanna call it
All my friends have looked and said it, I just keep on hitting dead ends
I continue losing close friends, I'm not boasting, I'm just broken
No one knows I haven't spoken, I'm just bottling depression
I'll lead you the wrong direction, so you can stop asking questions
Won't ever give my confession, I'll write it in music sessions
Where I feel I'm luminescent, and hope I could be a blessing

I thought all my scars would heal throughout time (throughout time)
But all these demons are still inside my mind (inside my mind)
I'm broken down to my feelings down inside (down inside)
And I hate that I still walk as if I am blind
(I am blind)

I have a bit of trauma, I still need to get healed through
I know I said it's sealed, but it kept opening old wounds
I don't feel like talking 'cause I feel as if it's old news
I've been fighting for years with the same old stupid issues

And every single time my dad asks if I'm alright
Wanna look away to cry, know he sees it in my eyes
But I keep it down inside, being strong is what I try
I'm asking God, "Who am I?", 'cause I feel I live a lie

'Cause I can't even trust the process, I feel I'm a piece of garbage
I just had to cut my losses, I don't ever wanna call it
All my friends have looked and said it, I just keep on hitting dead ends
I continue losing close friends, I'm not boasting, I'm just broken
No one knows I haven't spoken, I'm just bottling depression
I'll lead you the wrong direction, so you can stop asking questions
Won't ever give my confession, I'll write it in music sessions
Where I feel I'm luminescent, and hope I could be a blessing

I thought all my scars would heal throughout time (throughout time)
But all these demons are still inside my mind (inside my mind)
I'm broken down to my feelings down inside (down inside)
And I hate that I still walk as if I am blind