Journal

Can't help I'm a cold person, but you admire verses
Look so deep between the lines but what you really see ain't perfect
Wishing we'd go back in time, just once the clock gone stop working
Smartest kid in class, that's right before his brain could stop hurting
Every day a loop in the timeline, he caught in the matrix

Waking up on mountain roads, he biking home and his heart steady pacing
Mission failed like over and over, GTA, he can't escape it
Little knowledge of that surface, he gon' learn if he just scrape it
Crash and burn if he don't face it All the people come around, I still don't

See familiar faces Major steps, I play around, it takes some
Time to get ahead And am I falling out, with living or
Just surrounded by the dead? Too many days manipulated, through these
Pills that's in my head Wanna to neglect what she prescribing

If I don't, then it get worse, and in my mind I'm steady diving
Off the ends, I wipe my eyes, feel it sometimes, I was scared
Look in the mirror, now I'm tweaking, seeing things ain't really there
Plenty of shit I done been through, don't know my half about the whole

I'ma smile cause I miss you, this a note to self and someone else with tears on the tissue
It wasn't solved, in just a day long issue, understand the issue
Plant that seed up in the pot, cause when you growing it just fits you
These days it's real as it get, hold my people close when I'm microdosing

The world get intimate, don't understand like it could only be so long
That I ain't heard it so many times, I don't feel seen, so many meanings to the word
Pushing pencil to the paper, scribing shit from out my thoughts
Got brain fog, I feel the vapors, see my message, read it one more time

You find another layer, why y'all asking me for shit
You in debt to all the favors, yeah it's been a dirty game
Leading foul among the players, I gotta let it be for self
Feel the seasons just been changed, can't really call it nothing else

Left with touches on the pages, who I'm calling for some help?
When I'm standing in my world? what's the energy that's felt?
Been caught up with the internal, I can't really say too much
Releasing things from the journal, rip the page and skip a day

Then today I flip away, why you begging me to stay
How important is a person when they made to fade away
How important is a person when they made to fade away
How important is a person when they made to fade away

How important is a person when they made to fade away
Made to fade away