Father

Your absence is less painful than your presence
The way you make me feel when you're around
The way you make clear you don't care about us
I've little hope what I've needed in you can be found

I've tried so hard to have something with you
Something a little girl wants and needs from a father
Yet every attempt is met with overt aloofness
You could not even pretend to bother

What a little girl needs from a father

No interest in me, my life, my joys, my dreams
I'd have more reaction sharing to a brick wall
It's painfully obvious we share little more than genes
You waste little time making me feel small

Disappointed and disapproving of most I've ever done
I'm not the child you wished for or wanted
You could not be more clear that you'd be happier with another son
Your words often left me destroyed and haunted

Memories of your words still sting

You make every conversation about you
What you want and want for me to do
Always without thanks or appreciation
I can't even get the most basic consideration

I am done trying, I will never have your love
It leaves an emptiness inside me that cannot be filled
But I know I've tried, time and again going above

I won't be like you, I'll give unconditional love and support
My kids will never know the feelings you imparted in me
No empty hollow feelings will be in their hearts
Nor chasing after a relationship that will never be

A relationship that will never be

Your absence is less painful than your presence
The way you make me feel when you're around
The way you make clear you don't care about us
I've little hope what I've needed in you can be found

I've tried so hard to have something with you
Something a little girl wants and needs from a father
Yet every attempt is met with overt aloofness
You could not even pretend to bother

What a little girl needs from a father

No interest in me, my life, my joys, my dreams
I'd have more reaction sharing to a brick wall
It's painfully obvious we share little more than genes
You waste little time making me feel small

Disappointed and disapproving of most I've ever done
I'm not the child you wished for or wanted
You could not be more clear that you'd be happier with another son
Your words often left me destroyed and haunted

Memories of your words still sting

You make every conversation about you
What you want and want for me to do
Always without thanks or appreciation
I can't even get the most basic consideration

I am done trying, I will never have your love
It leaves an emptiness inside me that cannot be filled
But I know I've tried, time and again going above

I've tried father, I did my best

I won't be like you, I'll give unconditional love and support
My kids will never know the feelings you imparted in me
No empty hollow feelings will be in their hearts
Nor chasing after a relationship that will never be

Do you have any regrets father?
Do you?