lost a dream

Sabotaged myself
I ruined what we had cause I couldn't grow up
I swear it always ends like this it makes no sense
I've been making amends and healing my pain with ways you never knew
I am upset
Look at the way that I walk and talk
Look at the way that I dress
Look at the way that I do these drugs, only way I feel engaged
And I swear, and I swear, I haven't been the same
I've been going insane, all up in my brain

I was like what did you say?
You talking down on my name?
Don't give a fuck bout' the fame
Don't give a fuck about this bitch anymore
Because you know to me her love's like a race
Just like a race, you know that bitch is erased
And you know I cannot trust nobody no more, oh woah
I was like oh woah
Oh woah, I've had enough of her pain alone
I've always been here for you
You've never been there for me
And now you're foribidden to me

Thought you were the one
Now i'm forbidden from you
I was looking out for you
I swear the story always ends the same way
It is super predictable too
One thing my dad told me was never get addicted
To these girl like how I was for you
I was like look at me now, uh huh
I'm feeling better right now, uh huh

Why don't you go out right now? Uh huh
Do all the things that you did? Uh huh
But when i'm doing drugs its a problem, but when he does it it's not?
And im finally fed up
Had enough of the fake love
Texted her ima move on

Sabotaged myself
I ruined what we had cause I couldn't grow up
I swear it always ends like this it makes no sense
I've been making amends and healing my pain with ways you never knew
I am upset
Look at the way that I walk and talk
Look at the way that I dress
Look at the way that I do these drugs, only way I feel engaged
And I swear, and I swear, I haven't been the same
I've been going insane, all up in my brain