I Can’t Even Cry

Thought you were the one for me, I did
Thought you were the one that I'd be with
Strolling hand in hand like little kids
Until you turned around and fucked with it

Now I can't help but wanna be alone
Pack up my bags and walk out the door
Know that I'm about to lose this war
But I can't remember, what I been fighting for? (No, no)

Is it love, or is it something different
Voice of caution in my eardrums, but I never listen
Opening my heart to the thing it's missing
But I'm scared of all the hoping and the wishful thinking

'Cause love can be a marvel, but it can be vicious
Cut you 'til you're bleeding without no permission
'Til tears are in your eyes, love will blur your vision
Blur your vision (uh-uh)

But I can't even cry, cry
So many sleepless nights, nights
I've been asking myself why, why
As hard as I try, I'm as cold as ice, petrified

I can't even cry (cry, cry)
I can't even cry

I know that one day, I'll find my feet (find my-)
I'll be with somebody who loves me
Loves me hard enough to leave me be
Who gives me the time and space to breathe

Been making my peace with what the future holds
Embracing all the things that I don't know (don't know)
Everyone I'll meet and where I'll go
Remember what I was fighting for (for)

If it's love, or if it's something different
Voice of caution in my eardrums, but I never listen
I'll open my heart to the thing it's missing
I'll stop being scared of all the wishful thinking

'Cause love can be a marvel, but it can be vicious
Swear I'll learn to feel again, make it my mission
'Til tears are in my eyes, love will blur my vision
But for now, I

I can't even cry, cry
So many sleepless nights, nights
I've been asking myself why, why
As hard as I try, I'm as cold as ice (cold as ice), petrified

I can't even cry, cry, cry
Cry, cry (cry)

Oh, I can't even cry, cry, cry (cry)
As hard as I try, try, I'm as cold as ice, petrified
I can't even cry