Halfway

I thought our love meant that I was closer
To the life that I truly wanted
Now that it's really finally over
I can tell it was holding me hostage

I moved back to Brooklyn to find someone older
Someone who won't leave me so exhausted

I moved back to find someone else I could leave with
'Cause I want the house and the yard you were teasing

And you let me down
But that's okay 'cause we were gonna drown
And I'll pack my things
'Cause this ain't how it always has to be

A few weeks have passed I can see that you're hurting
Even if it's not the same kind of burning
I needed to know that it wasn't all rainbows
This meeting is useful, even though it's painful

I wish you would let it all out like you used to
I wish you would cry because tears can be useful
You hid under a blanket for more than that just that night
It was always flight, you had no fight
You hid from your feelings, while I dimmed the lights

And you let me down
It wasn't the other way around
It's not like it was black and white
It might never satisfy
All of my questions
And all that left was there
And I know you said the final words
It'll be your heart that hurts one day
'Cause I walked away

I was playing pretend
I was fucking upset
And I combed it all over when talking with friends
I bought tickets and flights
To keep the fantasy alive
And in the end you were only along for the ride

And you let me down
But that's ok 'cause we were gonna drown
And I packed my things
For two hours I forgot to breathe

It's not like it was black and white
It might never satisfy
All of my questions
And all that left was there
And I know you said the final words
But it'll be your heart that hurts
One day, 'cause I walked away
You wouldn't meet me halfway
You wouldn't meet me halfway
You wouldn't meet me halfway