SO HARD 2 FORGIVE

This is not a poem as such, but it is a statement I know that much
For all those people who feel so alone, filled with anger and hate
Well, this is my message, I know you can relate And some of you may not, but the truth is
This is all I've got, so hard so hard to forgive, but I'm trying

It's so hard, so hard to forgive So I've been thinking, I've been thinking
I've been thinking' to have the courage to tell you what I'm really feeling
So hard to forgive, so hard, but I'm trying
Once I was a scared little boy, oh boy, was I scared

So scared, so scared, I tell ya That every day, the memories
That I can remember, it made me feel like a failure
Like I was some damaged goods with a bad abnormal behaviour
So hard to forgive, it's so hard, so hard, but I'm trying

So hard, but I don't forget They say there's always two sides to a story
Well, this is my side of the story, but it's not filled with glory
Ooh, no, not yet, not yet but I'm still gonna tell it And I'll get there, get there in the end my friend
So I'll start from the beginning where all stories start

I have so much to say, but little time to say it
But I know what I want to say, and I know I want to share it
For all those people who feel this way
So sad and alone, it's so hard to forgive

It's so hard to forgive, but I'm trying
So hard, so hard, I hope you all wanna hear it
Growing' up wasn't easy, there was lots and lots of beating and mistrust
Even though I had two sisters, no brothers we never told each other how we felt

But I felt so isolated and alone every day that I came home
I didn't wanna be there, but I couldn't go anywhere else
Even though I wanted to run away from home to Billy's house
With this burden, I wanted to broaden my horizon

But I had no knowledge about freedom, Billy's parents brought me back home to my parents' house
I felt like a prisoner in a box, I felt so restricted
I wasn't as clever as a fox to think outside of the box like my sister Jackie did
Running' away from home to New York City

I was beaten, I was broken, I was mentally drained
Compliance was the name of the game, it made me stubborn and a little hard-headed
I know some people are going' through the same kind of pain, and they feel so ashamed
But they shouldn't have themselves to blame

Because it's so hard to forgive so hard
But I'm trying, but I'm trying
I feel so lost, so lost
There was no compassion from my parents, at least that's what I thought

And now I shine every day like a new born sun
And you don't have to be alone
So please, please, please tell someone
I know sometimes you want to be left alone

When you're feeling down, always have someone around
So you can get the help you need like I did I did
Now I want to forget, but it's been
So hard, so hard

But I'm trying to forgive
But I'm trying
So hard, so hard
But I'm trying

To forget so hard, so hard