Sleepless Nights (Remake)

If nothing even happens, then what doesn't even matter
I'm bullied every day, and it's fine, doesn't matter
As long as you're okay, babe, I hope that I don't matter

I'm here, but you're gone, and this pain that I feel
I wish I was gone from the earth, and that's real
I don't understand how this pain gets to last
Last from the past, it's the last from the past

All the pain that you gave, from the shit that you caused
Caused from the sores of the core, as it broke up
We had it all perfect, and you came and you cheated
Cheated on me, and you leave, so you leave it

Crying, sitting here, wondering, why'd you leave me here, all alone
In my room, without your tears, so far miss my option
Cause it helps, fuck off please
I don't wanna be a burden, but I am, and you're glad

I hope you understand, I don't wanna see you sad
If you wanna leave me, then just go home If you wanna leave me here, I'm at home
Why do I gotta try, when I already did
Knife in the rib, why do I have to exist

Life is a bitch, I hope that I see this
I hate waking up to see the sunlight exist
We're all gonna die right, that's how it goes
Nothing ever mattered, it's all a fucking joke

Life simulation, and I hope I fucking choke
From the rope, that drops from the noose of the coat
I know this sounds funny, but that's just how it is
I tried to slit my wrist, when I was just six

I tried to go on a deal, with pain, and I did
I turned out alright, but I still need help with it
I'm trying to exist, in a world full of dicks
I'm trying to exist, in a world full of six

Slit my wrist with the blade, that I kept from my dad
In my bed, that I used every night, it was sad
I need something to stop the pain, that I felt
I don't know why, my life is full of hell

I wanted to stop, but I know I never will
The blade's the only thing, that made me fucking heal
The blade and the noose, they helped, and that's great
I wanted to come back, but I know she never will

She probably wants me dead, and she probably wants me killed
I pray for being great, while I'm here standing awake
But it's too late to go
If you wanna leave, we stay in my home