nuisance / desiderium

(SBP)
(Where the fuck is dräco at?)

I hated that way
Waiting for someone to come save me
I hated those days
I had those days daily
Waking up then going back to sleep, it's just another day check
Normal days turn to normal ways, just a normal day wreck
Have you ever been in your own way
Been in your head
Trapped in your own maze
Trapped inside the past
Take a train to the city just to see some movement in life
Take a trip to a bitty just to find a new place to hide

Think I need a new state of mind
Fuck that comfort in isolation
Think I need a new place to find
All this approval and confirmation
Think I need a new way to grind
All this time that I've been wastin
I've become a nuisance to time, nuisance to time

I've become a nuisance to myself
Nuisance to those proud of me
Got a new chain on my belt
I've been chainin' thoughts up inside of me
Make it clear what I've been dealt
Gotta clear up I need clarity
Day's gone, I slept
I've been tired of this entirety
Tired of it finna dip
Stay away I'm finna flip
Smoke some start coughin
Stay away or get sick
I can rest in my coffin
I can rest when I'm finished
This studio like my office
This studio like my bitch
(I love it)
I love to talk my shit on tracks and act like it ain't nothin
Love it when they say they love me like I don't know that they're bluffin
I love a cash-in-hand
In love with money thumbin
I love to see a crowd
I love it when they're jumpin
Love it when they're hypin' up, love it when they cheer
You not looking hype enough, why you even here
I done wasted time enough, I got none to fear
And my Focusrite the only thing that give me focus right from all these things I hear
I became a nuisance in the truest sense, had to give myself a new chance
Tryna see all them new signs
Gemini, gave myself a new mind
Had to grow up
Am I man enough
Nowadays know it's the real me when you see me on the camera

Think I need a new state of mind
Fuck that comfort in isolation
Think I need a new place to find
All this approval and confirmation
Think I need a new way to grind
All this time that I've been wastin
I've become a nuisance to time, nuisance to time
Think I need a new state of mind
Fuck that comfort in isolation
Think I need a new place to find
All this approval and confirmation
Think I need a new way to grind
All this time that I've been wastin
I've become a nuisance to time, nuisance to time, time

(Nuisance to time, time)
(I've been out my mind, mind)

Wastin' my time
I've been wastin' it daily
Save myself from my mind
Seems like I hate me
I hate these emotions
Just wanna bury em
Lost myself in this world
I've been livin' in desiderium
Desiderium, desiderium, desiderium
Desiderium, desiderium, desiderium
Lost myself in the stereo
I've been livin' in desiderium
I need to love myself, but I need to drop my ego
I need to trust myself, I can't trust these people
I gotta watch my step, can't trust my feet oh
All this time we spent, ain't shit free tho
I've been locked in the stu for like some weeks, skimmin' beats
Knockin' shit out like Chito
No more wastin' days, wastin' weeks
I love this shit, I made this shit my routine oh
Made this my routine I'm MJ with a free-throw
Became an addiction, MJ at casinos
Spent to long as a nuisance
Imma just get lost in this music