letter

my heart doesn't have any room for apologies
i've held them back for a while
and i think you should know
when you asked if i'd cried, i lied

but does that really matter?
i was taught to lose with my head high
so when i shake your hand
don't you dare think that's me being kind

would you rather i left all my dreams in a ditch
set fire to all of my plans

cause i can't help from thinking
we'll meet in five years
and fall in love again

and you're right, you know?
i'd let you kill me
tear me, flesh and blood
baby, you got the best of my love

i've never once in my life been allowed to hold on to
something that makes me feel good
so i don't know why, when i found you
i thought that i could

i watched you love me like i deserve it
then like i deserve nothing at all
you tell me you miss me
then i have to beg you to call

if you stare at the sun
you are bound to go blind
maybe that's why i couldn't see the end

and i'm down on my knees
begging stay with me please
this will finish just how it began

and you're right, you know?
i'd let you kill me
time and time again

tear me limb from limb
like an animal
like a wild, wild dog

i fell for you like a french, winter snow
you fell for me like poor impulse control
i still have dreams about us in the cold

and when you go to sleep, all alone in your bed
i hope you remember the things that you said
sticking around like a song in your head

i hope you hear it forever
i hope you hear it forever

i hope you hear all the times you got mad
when you said fucking me made you feel sad
i hope you hear the things you can't take back

cause you can't love anyone now that i'm gone
the biggest mistake - out of all you did wrong -
was dating a girl who would write you a song

i hope you hear it forever
i hope you hear it forever
i know you'll hear it forever
i know you'll hear me forever

i know you'll hear me forever
i know you'll hear me forever
i know you'll hear me forever
i know you'll hear me forever