Shovel-man Odyssey: IV. Yet it won't be enough to drown this fire,

I can't believe that you're a new person
I can't believe so much time has passed
Eyes fall slow, I hate to care every time I remember
I am confused and afraid

It is not I forgot how I used to be
It is simply as the way it is
And I can't seem to fully trace the lines

I can't believe all the things I did
I can't stop to think of the plans I made and the songs we sang
Violins echo a melody below an orange sky
Drowning in my twisted innocence
as a man who's grown like a child trapped in scourged snow

It is not that there is no solution
These lines I try to trace

Could trees grow on a desert island?
I'll scream your name loud in the air
In an attempt to rewrite the thoughts I had
at the moment I chose to leave you aside

And as I lay on my bed
Creatures sing inside my head
Telling me to turn the plans again
To commit a genocide of every memory
Commands I do recognise but never fully understand

There were the words I wrote, in a perfect harmony
Or that's what I thought. So wrong
Let it slip away, focus on another thing
Not on the things I couldn't fix

Could things have gone the other way?
I'll beg for truth in an attempt to rewrite the future days

{As I search for the secret place where my mind belongs,
where the sadness will drown into nothingness}

A corrupted dream
I should face
Just left the pain aside
(Once you dreamed of this)
Try to face it again
(You sealed the way out)
Never reached this place
(It was never close, always far from your hands)
It was out of reach
(The easy path you chose, as wrong as it gets)
Trying to escape
(You remained inside the hatred, you did embrace it)
From the truth that I didn't face

Plan another dream
(Forget the words you wrote, let the past be buried deep below)
Or face the truth
(There is no second chance,
or at least is not there to let you improve)
Plan another dream
(Elena isn't there anymore,
she was left forgotten on your island shore)
Face the truth again
(There is no second chance to live in a past
below the orange sky of innocence)

I won't plan another dream
(Forget the words you wrote,
let the past sink further on the waters of your soul)
I should face it
(There is no second chance, you did fail to make things right)
Dreams are meant to fade
(Elena isn't who you think she is anymore,
she was more than enough, why did you ask for more?)
And there's nothing I can say to bring Gloria back
An odyssey of love corrupted by the great search

I am afraid I won't...
I won't enjoy things for what they are
Even if the sky is there to bring me hope
and the most beautiful of the seas of dust
Even if the white ribbon beckons me, even if their love engulfs me
It is not enough
Life, please

I hate how I act
And suddenly again, my ego has reached the top
From where I see how wrong I am

Step into the light, drown these thoughts in truth
Never losing track of the steps you danced
Leave her behind, Elena breathes new air
She may have chosen the path to be renewed

Step into the light, smell the flaws of truth
Don't be afraid, carry on
Bring out of the dark what you hold so strong

Forgive me for what I wanted you to be