Silver

I was born in the field where honesty springs
East side by my pops where honesty brings
A clarity that we needed, does honesty ring
From the fountain of you like honesty screams

Family was too ghetto to move to the burbs
Truth hurts when you choose to use youth as a herd
Have you heard what they do if you using your words
Shot a nigga by the lake for the truth that he spurred

Most niggas never heal from the wounds that they get
Reminiscing back when times was less gloomier than
The reality they faced in the room that they're in
Sudden doom ain't enough just to choose when to swim

Dark hours through the clock in this world that we in
Lost friends to a stranger that's curling a pen
Lost pens on this road to the riches we sent
It's a dark road to hell that we live in again
Look

I was broken 'fore the bell had a chance to ring out
Had no one to pick me up or to carry me out
I was living like the wolves in a charity house
I would do shit by myself cause no trust was around

Abe Lincoln would be proud so look at me now
Traveled to that cold city and look what I found
The transition to the burbs was hard on my heart
But a nigga came around just to shut the shit down

All my life I was very confused
Why nobody with a dream was sticking it too
But I had a lot of things that I wanted to do
I just never put a limit on when to improve

Yeah niggas see you got a light, but they hate when you shine
I ain't even in my prime and they hate on my grind
I am different from these niggas they paying to rhyme
I ain't even gotta mention they name to reply

I was clinging to a crush as an eight year old kid
We gave little children hope just to shatter their shit
I was crying every night cause I hated to live
With a dream of a family making it big

I was smart in suburbia niggas was shook
Straight a's in my classes finishing books
But I looked around and nobody looked how I looked
Only melanated nigga with triggers and hooks

When my sister left I became the man of the house
Pops wasn't around to help when the damage was found
You could say pressure I felt was a handsome amount
I'm a handsome motherfucker but dating was out

I trained myself as a kid to start looking away
When she bend it over so I'm less shook when it shakes
Out of respect for my mother I'll do what it takes
To make sure the sacrifices were made were not in vain

It's not that I don't want to smash when girls looking my way
Especially when she got a booty that's thicker than cake
Gotta blame my pops for that though the shit's in my genes
I just often think about the decisions he made

To say it was a mistake on the day I was made
Is controversial enough in this day and this age
I don't want to be ungrateful for life that he gave
I don't want no one to take what I say as some hate

But the shit I had to witness and take to the grave
Is a pain that I'm not even sure Jesus could save
So I'll dream it away