Depression Of Mine

Depression is a darkness that lives deep in me
And the pain it burns until I can't see
Psychiatrist's have tried with no success
Guess I'm just too much of a fucking mess
Some days I just want to escape it all
A fistfull of pills that could make me fall
Maybe a bullet to calm this broken brain
Or a razor to relieve my agonizing pain
Searching for silence I just can't find
Will anything settle this restless mind
Depression holds me down, all of the time
While I act like it's easy, saying "I'm fine"
Withhold my emotions, lock them away
Keep telling myself, "relax it's ok"
Life's too heavy and it's hard to breathe
There's no need to make the normals grieve
I walk around pretending everything's fine
As I learn to live with this depression of mine
Depression of mine
Depression of mine
Dizziness takes over and my thoughts collide
I hear wandering screams from the depths inside
My mind keeps racing and spinning around
Like everyone's yelling without making a sound
Bury my head in my hands, I can't set it free
Knot the pain up so tight so no-one can see
It's always there lurking, it never goes away
Just have to keep pretending, it'll be okay
Medicate with pills to take off the edge
Will anything ever talk me off this ledge
Depression holds me down, all of the time
While I act like it's easy, saying "I'm fine"
Withhold my emotions, lock them away
Keep telling myself, "relax it's ok"
Life's too heavy and it's hard to breathe
There's no need to make the normals grieve
I walk around pretending everything's fine
As I learn to live with this depression of mine
Depression of mine
This depression left me on the cold hard floor
I force myself up and to head out the door
Just need to keep moving, step by step
I'm living this darkness, but doing my best
Step out into the world and the sun hits my face
I get temporary relief from its warm embrace
As the world carries on and I fake a smile
The warmth might fade, but helped for a while
Everyday's a battle, I fight on my own
Surrounded by people, but always alone
Depression holds me down, all of the time
While I act like it's easy, saying "I'm fine"
Withhold my emotions, lock them away
Keep telling myself, "relax it's ok"
Life's too heavy and it's hard to breathe
There's no need to make the normals grieve
I walk around pretending everything's fine
As I learn to live with this depression of mine
Depression of mine
Depression of mine