Try as I May

Try as I may
I'm still fighting for you
In my own long-suffering way
You were meant to watch
My private ceremonies all
In the dark parts of rooms

Try as I may
To hold your crazy ass against the wall
In my scared, my scared shitless way
You came down to see
My private ceremonies all
On the floor of this room

Try as I may
I am always kept safe
In my, in my right-minded hell
You were born to hold
My cannonball brain
Like the Lord holds the moon

Try as I may
I never did seduce the wall
With my spinning and my swinging spineless ways

Try as I may
I'm still fighting for you
In my sad, sad little rock-throwing way
You were meant to watch
Over my ceremonies all
From the dark in my shoes

Try as I may (try as I may)
To be heard through the wall
To be seen getting loud on the phone
You were born to break
My big hairy football arms
Like clean windows kill the birds

Try as I may (try as I may)
I am bitching to the wall
Of my long-armed and knuckle-scraping ways
I hadn't sailed 30 feet
When I drowned in expensive clothes
For the oysters all to see

Try as I may (try as I may)
To love what fits in my hand
I don't
I don't