underwater

This is the furthest I've been from the ocean in years
My darling, the thing is
Who am I when the water runs clear?

There's salt in my bones
Briny depths to my soul
It's burning in my lungs, from screaming at the sun underwater
There's stones on my shore
And the mother that you mourned
She's screaming at me, "run, the water took our sons and all our daughters"

But I'm just a fool, counting down the hours to you
Cast out a line, get lost in the ebb of the tide

Pull me under, pull me home
Let me rest down with the bones
This baptism, this sacrifice
The water cuts me like a knife
It's home, to the misery set in my bones
To hours and weekends alone in the world,
A scared little girl, at high tide
(Aah, aah, aah, ahh)

There's a desert where you live, swallowed in sand
I passed you like ships in the night, violent delights finding land

There's sand on my tongue
The anchor came undone
The ship ran aground, what was lost now is found on the shore
There's sun on my face
Burn the brand of disgrace
From the skin I have scarred, and the memories I marred keeping score

But I'm just a kid, I want to live like you always did
Tell me I'm brave, though I walk on the roads that she paved

Pull me under, pull me home
Let me rest down with the bones
This baptism, this sacrifice
The water cuts me like a knife
It's home, to the misery set in my bones
To hours and weekends alone in the world,
A scared little girl, at high tide

My blood is in the water
But I love my mother's daughter
She has stumbled and fallen down
She learned to swim before she drowned
My thoughts spin in this whirlpool
It's familiar, but it's so cruel
'Cause it's easy in the ocean
It's just a heart that's splitting open
Adrift on the current, God was it worth it?
To spend all my change, and then spend all my purpose?
Insidious lies, oblivious eyes,
Swearing I'm more than a waste of your time
No, oh, oh

Find me at the beach-will you hold my hand while I sleep?
Darling, I'm scared you'll smell the salt on my hair, you'll know
It pulls me under, pulls me home
I will rest down with the bones
This baptism, this sacrifice
The water cuts me like a knife
It's home, to the misery set in my bones
To hours and weekends alone in the world,
A scared little girl, at high tide