Depression

Opened my heart to find the misery
That has been weighing on my soul, feels like forever
I'm digging deep beyond insanity
Trying to reach the depts of inception
Trying to deal with what I am
What I was and what I'm never gonna be
I am trying to remember and understand
What is the meaning of pain

I feel the cold waters rising
Deep breath and I'm free at last
Eyes closed, my fears are growing
This life doesn't owe us anything

I feel the comfort in the hate
A safe place for all to hide and die
Neglected fears are now determining
Everything that I can not
I feel my purpose overpowering
All the doubts that I've been collecting for ages to come
I choose to let it go
I am my savior

I feel we will travel forever
With the flow of time and space
Experiencing what we're too afraid to see
God is laughing at me, waiting patiently
Meek are all the children, yet we choose to be weak

Underneath the pain, I feel free

Born to prevail, to last
Torn between the worlds everchanging
Fought, and lost, and won
Thought that I was alone in this madness
Saw the impossible change
Caught a glimmer of hope in the distance
Walk the path we must
Trust we won't succumb to temptation
Now is the beginning of the end
Bow before the almighty creator of all
That is black and that is white
Light can not be without darkness

No way out
But down, deeper, until you face it all

All your life you've crawled beneath the muk
The dirt, reborn, rejoice