Dysthymia

Forgive me, for I'm about to sin

Dear Father, I need you more than ever
Dear mother I am feeling lost
This chapter is taking me forever
My behavior
What's the final cost?

This life has determined
I'll be food to vermin
Left alone and burnin'
In ashes transformed
Will I be returning?
Reborn, my enemies be warned
If I come back I will not stop, I will not take a break
I will search every alley, I will plant them the stake
I want every one of your friends to hear your bones break

I don't know what is expected of me
All I feel is constant misery
I'm being buried alive
I'm being buried alive
I think I'm ready to die

This life can't determine
Won't be food to the vermin
Eyes and heart are burnin'
In ashes transformed
Is this how I go down, can't go down, I will not drown

If I come back I will not stop, I will not take a break
I will search every alley, I will plant them the stake

This is a mess, I am a wreck, I can't reflect
What can I do, it's like my brain blew

This depression, there's no question
It is taking too much space
Claustrophobic, anaerobic, can no longer feel my face
I have questions, more than answers
This is one god damn disgrace
Can no longer feel my face, everything will be erased

I'm insane
I am vain
Gotta break this fucking chain
I must fight
Time to let the pressure drop

I feel numb, is this dumb, should I try and call my mum
It's a phase, heard you say
It will all just go away
Not a phase, it's my days, it's inside my fucking veins
All this drains, creates pain, I feel like I'll tear in flames

Motherfucker, I will fight you, I won't let you take the reigns
I won't break down, I won't bow down
I won't let you blow my brains

I am insane
Bleed

I am vain, all in vain

This is one God damn disgrace
This is one God damn disgrace
This is one God damn disgrace
This is one God

I don't know what is expected of me
All I feel is constant misery
I'm being buried alive
I'm being buried alive
I think I'm ready to die



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