Oceanside

So far off the edge, I might slip
Would you catch me by the hand, or would you dip out?
Will I see my friends? Or will I be without
Another companion, I'm falling it's endless

If I jumped into the ocean would you catch me 'fore I jumped
Off the bridge, soul floating into skies, spaceships
I wished for death and shit, I shouldn't have as a kid
Razor split fucking reject I ain't even want no friends
What it is how it was just another day to live
Pushing on feeling stuck fucking lace up hit the spliff
All the ones who I thought were by my side never did
Ask me 'bout the signs only looked for switches the could flip
And that chick I was with I don't blame you now back then I did
105 Fahrenheit with the longest sleeves embarrassment
Embarrassing it was I never opened up or left the crib
Speaking on it now it hurts to type and write it through this pen
Man I shipped away on sail in voids of darkness tryna fit
Myself into this puzzle just a piece that's always wrong again
I ain't tryna bitch just wanna vent and find connection
To heal the nights I'm up in pools of misery and restless

So far off the edge, I might slip
Would you catch me by the hand, or would you dip out?
Will I see my friends? Or will I be without
Another companion, I'm falling it's endless

Endless holes and empty wallets, end this life or keep on stalling
Glad I didn't, but when I look back almost like I'm watching
Ocean splashing on the rocks, washing me away with not a impact on a single life at least that's just the way I saw it
Honest what I promised I would be if stuck inside that pocket
Once again repeated cycles praying yet hope he's not watching
Feed me drugs and habits, won't speak about it to nobody
Long as you could reassure that after this you never saw me
Perception of love was twisted, bandaging my heart and arms
That's why I got the dogs tattooed, a war I fought get past the scars
Scared of hurt, abandonment an issue I was working on
Confused to say the least, think you're shady next thing you been blocked
Never was a hoe just fucked around a bit the fair amount
I don't wanna attach to somebody I know ain't really count
Even if you did I even did that shit to all my friends
I was healing tryna reach a bliss and find my innocence
A hypocrite cause where was I when you were going through abyss
Of actions that would hurt so terribly we ain't seen you again
Sticks inside my brain the way we made them jokes cause we were friends
Is what we did for you it dug much deeper than the surface is
I hope you forgive for all the times we weren't checking in
To all the homies yea I know we ain't in touch but that don't mean
You could never hit me up no matter what for anything
No matter what for anything