Veins

I'm trapped inside
My strung out mind
But outside I turned myself to a wreck
And everything that's left in me
Ends up in these
Pages here on this bourbon stained desk

Should I finish that drink
Or pour it down the sink
Then paint a picture with my six string
But sober or not
Drunk or high
It's the same picture every time

I could spend forever locked in here
Writing songs
Thinking one day I would move on
I'm trying to make a living off of missing you
With all the hurt
In every word
But the hurt's been hurting a little more
Cause I know you're never
Coming through that door
No matter how much
Liquor I put in my veins
That ain't gonna change

But since you ain't around
When the sun goes down
I've turned into a man
That you'd probably hate
And if I break this seal
And take a few of these pills
It's sure to seal the deal and settle my fate
Another dive bar
Behind this guitar
Playing the part of someone who's all right
But keeping you away
And out of my mind it's a life long fight

And I could spend forever
In the spot light
Singing these songs
Of a man who never moved on
A crowd full of drunks
A body full of drugs
To take the pain away for long enough
But this loud paradise is my escape
From knowing you're never
Waiting for me at my place
No matter what kind of junk I put in my veins
That ain't gonna change

I'll probably spend forever
Singing this song
With the time I should've moved on
Going nowhere but in a circle
Here's to you and another bottle
Here in my head but you're not really here
The hurt never left through all these years
No matter what I did to kill that pain
It never changed

Mmm you're in my veins
I'll never get you out of my veins