I was only being vain

There's no me to muster
No place for me to go
Nothing I would say
You really want to know
If I said I had desire
That's the lie of the refrain
I've no self
For a self would be in vain

If I said I had courage
That'd be another lie
If I said I was in love
That's just a place to hide
If I broke down tomorrow
There was no reason for my pain
Nor a cause
For a cause would be in vain

I don't have any ethics
I myself am the stone
I don't care if I follow
I can make it alone
We have the same worldview
There's nothing for me to gain
And no thought
For a thought would be in vain

It's alright
I'll come through
It's alright
I'll be true

And all the things that I'm feeling
Are only stories I've heard
I'll never trust words like tenderness
There's devil in the word
I don't know what I live for
Guess it all comes from my brain
I've no God
For a God would be in vain

So once again we're on the level
The level keeps it all down
I never thought I'd feel this way again
It's only made me a clown
Self expression is selfish
I'll never try to explain
You have the floor
I was only being vain