don't worry

I was sitting there alone when he approached me
Put his arm around without asking quietly
Thought I liked it, being intimate
But he choked me just the first minute

I needed some time alone to replay
After all, it has just been a day
Felt nice in his touch, thought that was enough
We didn't bond but we got attached

My nervous system is in a loop
I don't know how to turn it off
He says "Go with the flow,"
What that means? I never know

The curse of an over-thinker is
They never stay in the moment
Must control everything by
Putting anxiety into action

'Cause if so I can
Only focus on myself
Nothing around
Just my palpitations

Breathing does not work
Journaling is worse
Don't know what to do
Tremors long past due

Sit, listen, and feel
You don't need to shed tears
Yet also, you can, anytime
If you think it will help

Your safety is your priority
You can leave or stay, it's your call
Don't worry (Don't worry)
Don't worry (Don't worry)
Don't worry
It'll be (It'll be) OK once you feel secure in your body

I admit it was a magical night
I could hold hands for the first time
Until he made promises (too fast), and expected back from me (it'll last)
I confused his feelings with mine

But something felt off on the way going home
Every time I thought, it felt so wrong
Then he talked me into it (me into it), repeatedly manipulated (manipulated)
Didn't even react when I noticed

But is it me or is it him?
His anxious and my avoidant
Our attachment styles harmonize
That's why I could not decide

Stuck in the flight mode
But this should I fight for?
My stomach is nauseous
Sleeps turned into nightmares

I tried too hard (I tried too hard)
To soothe my heart (To soothe my heart)
Nothing around (Nothing around)
I'm glued to the ground (I'm glued to the ground)

I try not to think (Try not to think)
Maybe this is my panic (Maybe it's panic)
Or is this my gut
Instincts signaling out? (Is this my instincts signaling out?)

Sit listen and feel (Sit listen and feel)
You don't have to go near (I don't have to go near)
If you're not reassured
You can actually take your time (I can take my time)

Your safety is your priority
Either leave or stay it's your call (It's my call)
Don't worry (Don't worry)
Don't worry (Don't worry)
Don't worry
Whatever you do (Whatever you do)
Will be right for you just trust your boundaries

Love-bombing and guilt-tripping
His tactics were a facet
He acted as if (He acted as if)
He was so caring (He was not)

Owed it to hold him in his worst
Just because he held me first
Now I realize (Now I realize)
That's not so right (That's not so right)

The moment I left
A weight was lifted
Off my shoulders
Oh there's my answer

Shouldn't doubt myself
Yeah I have problems
But I know I try
My best every time