brain cancer

All of this time
Walking around the earth like you
Like you
But all of this time
Spent walking around I never knew
I never knew
Burned into my eyes
And onto the film, it can't be true
It can't be true
I'm not ready to die
But you can't take them out now can you?
Can you?
My thoughts and ambitions with worms eating through
Memories infested with maggots, who knew?
Unfixable, hopeless, too many to count
Nothing to do but just sit here and watch as my
Thoughts and ambitions start culturing mould
How can I think still when most of its gone?
Will I be cursed to think still when all of it's gone?
You can't just expect me to keep going strong when my
Thoughts, my ambitions are covered in holes
How can I think now when all of it's gone? And I'm
Not the same person I've been all along but there's
Nothing to do but just sit here and watch as my
Thoughts, my ambitions are covered in holes
Thoughts and ambitions are covered in holes
And I'm not the same person I've been all along
Oh you can't just expect me to keep going strong
I'll never feel the warmth of your hands
I'll never grow into a man
I'll never see the transit of Venus
I promised I'd see it as soon as I can

I'll never be realer than you
I'll never not have something to do
And if could help it then wouldn't I try?
I don't wanna die, wish I never knew
I'll never rest, I'll never last
So many shows only watch 'em so fast
Too many things I wish I could change
But let's just be honest I'd do them again

If doctors can't help me then why do they try
Why give me a chance when I'd much die from these
Bugs in my brain, there's too many to count
Nothing to do but just sit here and watch as
The flowers and trees live an ignorant life
Unknown to regrets if they life or they die
And I don't want to go oh I don't want to go
Oh I don't want to go just a little bit longer
I don't even stand by the things that I said
I wasted my time thinking thoughts in my head
When I could've just loved you, but going again
Oh I'd make sure to punch this wall just a bit harder
I'll kill all the beetles, the flowers and trees
I'll preheat my brain to a thousand degrees
And I'm fried and you're terrified, don't want to look
But there's nothing to do but just sit here and watch as
The flowers and trees live an ignorant life
Unknown to regrets if they life or they die
And I don't want to go oh I don't want to go
Oh I don't want to go just a little bit longer
I don't even stand by the things that I said
I wasted my time thinking thoughts in my head
When I could've just loved you, but going again
Oh I'd make sure to punch this wall just a bit harder
I'll kill all the beetles, the flowers and trees
I'll preheat my brain to a thousand degrees
And I'm fried and you're terrified, don't want to look
But there's nothing to do but just sit here and watch as my-
"Oh, it's over"